Hey guys~ im feeling so totally bleah about doing anything else right now, i thought i might as well take the chance to say something around here. lol.

Well, art wise, as of lately ive been awfully uninspired (translate: lazy)to complete anything i propose to do. Ive been thinking it might be because I consider myself mostly a designer, and my art skills are nothing but something i use to physically manifest my thoughts. ...so nowadays i just go crazy designing stuff and then i just look at my sketches and say "oh, this would look so totally baddass when its finished." and that pretty much does it for me, lmao. then i just kick back and do something else.AAAAAAAARRRGH.
I have literally a pile of concepts and characters. I just need to find someone to render them for me lol. UUUNNNGHHHHNNNNHHHHH OTL
Ive been shifting around media/programs alot lately, and i still get weary of the technical parts of art. i get turned off pretty easily.

Oh, me.

One of the reasons im writting this is because ive noticed that whenever i talk about how lazy i am, for some reason i start doing things, almost as if my subconscious is trying to prove me wrong. :B (lets hope it works right now.)

Uhg lol btw, my message center has already reached the 4 digits. ...without counting the submissions to check. <(ºAº<) Heavens, and whenever i try to check picturess i just shovel around but the next day theyre just even more. Its like trying to dig a hole in quicksands! waaah.

end note, im back to school. and normal life as always. blah blah

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lol i just talked with on the phone. i think i was 45 mins. im not gonna be here when the phone bill comes ;D . i nearly got him to admit about the trannies in his place. he sounded nice. but because of the timezones i ended up calling him at midnight. he couldnt stop complaining. we all makes mistakes. didnt had to shooosh me away. jesus. :I at least we talked more than a "hai" this time.
im so nervous on the phone ("Hey, did i tell you about my wuh- wuh- wuh- wuhaksjdkajsdha nevermind" ), and i wish my voice wasnt so crappy. U________________U and the heavy japanese accent doesnt help either. (MOSHIMOSHIII)
and i think i threw up a little im my mouth at some point. :C

PS: his life is more interesting than mine. ask him about all the chubby Tifas he scored at AX.
PS2: we forgot to say "BFFS" or soemthing, idk.

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sorry if i have been so dead, lol.
at the moment im reevaluating some stuffs about art. so whenever i do something to actually post, its just a little casual thing.

right now i find myself enjoying a piece of pizza covered in pickled chili peppers. both spent the entire night in my pant's pocket after an evening in town.
life's finest.

the weather is so dry lately, my lips are so chapped, they bleed all the time. i got passionfruit-flavored chapstick. it makes me feel pretty.

uhm. what else. Im enduring visiting my family. got paperworks and errands to do. installing software in the pcs here.and stuffs like that. might even do some paying work.
its a little boring and slow around here, i admit. but i get a break from school, which im starting to hate, haha. =____=

I feel tempted to take the neighbour's dog for a walk, and maybe take my little brother's little bike and ride all the way down the steep street around the corner.
But not both at the same time, lol…


…that would be…




...brb.

So.

Last night i had a dream.


I was back in catholic school and i was hanging by the chapel with a couple of my friends.

The police broke out with one of the priests cause me and my friends falsely acused him of getting too touchy. We were laughing so much. The priest was freaking out, he threw his hat and cursed our names in the name of god.
Then we played soccer with his hat. it was such a funny hat old and flat. like a pie. Then one of my friends wanted to set it on fire. And i said "NO wait. i wanna keep it as a memory!"

Then i went to the mirror in the bathroom and tried the hat on. it looked so good on me. a little big, though.

Anyway... after i woke up i felt so bad...


I dont know where to get a hat like that.

not much to say-
im a little frustrated about my current harddrive, the one ive had for almost 2 years now- its 30GBs and i cant strech stuff in it anymore. Barbaric.
So im gonna meet my father today cause he promised me another hard drive last xmas.

sigh!

also been afully nostalgic nowadays, i think i've watched too much VH1, i just discovered it. The 90's were so awesome, all those one-hit-wonders and the golden age of grunge. It's a punch in the chest everytime i hear them.

Well, ive been getting my work together, also. i just really really hope this deal im working out finally settles down so i can have my pay and stop worrying about it. uhg.

Lol.
Aside from looking at other people's stuff here every now and then, i have to drag myself to check my own messages.
I've been drawing now that i have the time.
But to tell the truth, i really dont feel like posting. It got monotonous.

While working on my everyday stuff and drawing lazily, Im enjoying the peace in the house after my family had to rush back home for work issues.
Im having a nice time eating all the leftover groceries they bought. i just ate an entire can of peaches by myself, so you get an idea.

i dunno, ...what im saying is...I pretty much completely checked out! lol.

(I demand some fruitcake.)